Patcience.

It's strange how the same people in your life can continue to affect you time and time again.
I find that all the first impressions I come upon seem to take me by surprise and intruige me, like everyone new is just so different and unique and nothing at all like all the regulars in my life. But I finally have come to the realization that the newness wares off, the awe and fascination dwindles, and I'm just recovering when I turn around to hear one of my ex's turn my state of mind around. Everyone I love so much, I'm just so vulnerable to them. And that doesn't upset me because I'm terrified of pain, it upsets me because of the uncertanties of the future. Hannah, Sarah, Tahlia, Ari, they're all going to get married in their early twenties, to men they've probably met months before, and then they're going to leave and have litters of children. So what happens if we fight and then they're gone? What happens when they're gone period?
I got in a fight with my dad, again. Don't know where this one's going to go. I only know that I'm not calling him anytime soon, and I'm pretty sure he's returning the favor.
You know what that means, though, don't you? That I'm free for the rest of the break?

correct.