I Watch Too Much Television.

I found more time to do this.

One of my best friends in the whole entire world is experiencing his first year in college right now, and when I say experiencing, I mean it in the college sense of the word. And it's frightening me. He's joined a fraternity, not a frat, (apparently the first thing they teach you when you become a member is the terminology or something ludacris like that) and he's busier getting drunk and hooking up with girls than doing his school work. Okay okay, I'm not saying I wouldn't be going to parties, (though I wouldn't be getting drunk) or actually be doing every single assignment before the due date and with vigor, but I don't like where he's going with it. Maybe that's mostly because I never would have expected this from him. We've been close for around four years, and he's almost the last person I'd put in the "get trashed and have sex with college girls on school nights" category. Don't you hate that? I think I'll put "realizing you don't know someone you love as well as you thought you did" at the top of the list when it comes to hate.
I really like quotes today. As Joey would say, "I'm Sorry?"
Anyway. That's been coming up a lot lately. (That's what she said.) I mean of course, finding out I don't know people as well as I should or thought I did. It hurts a lot. I'm sort of in the process of losing a lot of people right now, people that mean the world to me and more, or at least they used to. Cliche as it sounds, it's almost as if they take part of me with them when they go, or when they change, or when I find I was wrong about them. And it's not as if I don't want to chase after them or make sure they stay a part of my life, but sometimes too much effort from one side just makes it worthless. I don't even know what I'm saying anymore.
On the other hand, I've been needing new for a while and I think I'm getting it. Or getting there. We'll see. You know what phrase I hate? "Only time will tell." Just putting that out there, and again with the quotes.
Well.

"Goodbye," for now.